So I have this app on my phone, the Google photo assistance app and occasionally it will pop up with a picture from that day from however many years ago. Today it popped up with a picture from 7 years ago and when I saw it I was totally taken back. It took me back to a time in my life when I was really unhappy in a lot of ways. There were a lot of difficult things going on in my life. I had 2 really young kids, my husband (who is in the Air Force) was leaving all the time, I was overweight and unhealthy…
Looking back at that picture, I just wanted to go back and give my old self a big hug! And tell me that it would be okay.
This got me thinking about how far I’ve come, and so today I want to tell you my story, how I started my business.
As you probably know, I’m a holistic nutritionist and an eating psychology coach, but gosh I’ve come a long way myself. I told you before that after I had my first baby I read my first diet book (The South Beach Diet) which started this whole thing with me and health books. I have had a long road of health! I would try different diets, I was even vegan for a few years, and I would go back and forth with eating healthy and then binging, gaining a lot of weight and then losing it. I was on this health journey.
Three years ago, I decided to buckle down and learn all there is to know about nutrition. So I started my Master’s degree on Holistic nutrition. I’ve taken so many different classes – Anatomy and Physiology, Biochemistry, Pathophysiology, Chemistry, Nutrition, Stress Management – you name it in science courses and I’ve probably taken it!
But as the degree went along, I just felt that it wasn’t quite what I wanted. I was getting all this knowledge, but I still felt that there was a gap between what I was doing and what I wanted to be, and knew I should be doing. I was digging myself into this hole of shame and guilt! I was eating healthier overall, but still felt like I was such a loser with all this knowledge who wasn’t doing anything differently.
Then, about a year ago, my husband tagged me on Instagram on the Eating Psychology account. That one social media tag changed my life! I started watching all of Marc David’s videos (he founded the Institute for the Psychology of Eating) and it was like a lightbulb went off. Seriously, it was like a spiritual awakening for me!
I knew within minutes of watching the first video, that this was the missing piece. It was like a huge shift happened in my mind, and in my soul really. I knew it was the truth! I also knew I needed to learn this so that I could share it with everyone.
So I did! I have learned it and now I’m sharing it! Which is how this business came about.
I don’t have the perfect diet. I don’t have the perfect body. I love to exercise! I do it every day because I want to, because it feels good. I eat pretty healthy most of the time. But the biggest change is in how I feel about myself.
If you’re a girl maybe you do this too: You are walking by somewhere, maybe a store window, and you see your reflection and you maybe suck in a little bit and think “Ew, my butt!” or “Ugh my rolls” or whatever that tape says that plays in your mind.
This weekend I was telling my husband as we were walking by some windows, I looked at myself and realized how I didn’t do that anymore, letting that tape play. I thought “Cool!” I am so happy with who I am. And all those years of diets and books and all that stuff when I was claiming to look for health, I was actually searching to be happy with who I am. To feel happy with my own body and be happy in my own skin.
Guess what guys – I’m there. I’m not perfect, I still have bad days. Like last night for instance, I was watching “So You Think You Can Dance” and I was seeing all those dancer bodies and I had a few moments of thinking that I wished I could look like them. But overall, big picture, I’m so happy with who I am.
That’s why I started this business. I want to help everyone I can get to that point! Not only of health, but peace with who they are and with their body. Because we need that. We live in a world of such toxic BLEH. We swim in this toxic soup of “women need to look and be a certain way”. It really does a number on our psyche, but it doesn’t need to be that way.